LAW OF ATTRACTION...

Some people like me a lot...some may be not...some may pretend to like... Urgh...I don't know. I am a kind of person who most of the time believe in my intuitions and first impression. Those principles have sometimes affected me in my choice of friends i.e close friends.

But sometimes what we see can be very deceiving...I believe that what's more important is to closely observed and understand the person or group of people before we start to jump into any conclusion.

Recently, I read a book by Michael J. Losier, The Law Of Attraction... rather refreshing... I got the same feeling when I read La Tahzan... Both books have moved me and changed my perceptions towards several things and situations.

I am going to try and apply the things that I learnt from the book in my daily activities. Though i may looked like I don't care... I am actually a kind of person who is pretty much keen to self motivation, self help kinda things...

To all my students, thanks for spending your time reading the blog but explore more. You can read more about me and my experiences in the earlier posts...

THIS IS THE FEELING...

These few days I've been quite busy with the office works. Realizing the facts that it is not an easy task to juggle between teaching and being a Pengetua Asrama, I foresee the need to really plan my time.

Whenever I have time, I would always surf the net; searching for latest materials to be used in class or surf my blog-updating things. Truthfully, I am very very very happy with my students' responds to the entries... Apart from all the houha about not being good in the language, it seems that they are actually capable of using the language... yesterday I had 19 comments on my first entry of the year and today it rose to 33... that is good...

Dear students...

Nothing is impossible in life. The most important part is your determination to achieve and get whatever you wanted. Always have Allah in your heart...

I always recall someone once said : Do the best, Allah will do the rest....

HAPPY MOMENTS...SAD MOMENTS...

Last few days were full of memories... On Friday, I came home quite late because I had to wait for my husband's arrival from Rawang... He planned earlier to use the commuter but I insisted that he used Tg. Malim Starcoach bus which resulted him arriving at Kg. Kubu at almost 7 pm. We rushed back to PSAS and dressed for the night function. Kak Long Shikin's berinai curi ceremony was due that night, though I almost decided not to go... we headed back to Tg. Malim at nearly 8.30pm.

On Saturday, I was quite busy with the house chores. We planned to go to the bride's house for rewang but in the end decided only to attend the akad nikah function. The children ( my own and my grand children ) begged me to take them so my car was full of little kids that night and abang Khaizu had to go with Ummi Kalsom.

We were so happy to meet the Naam's family and clans... Kak Zohrin suggested to organize a family day especially for the Naam's clans and I quickly seconded her. It would be very fun to gather almost 3 to 4 hundred people together...

On Sunday, everyone gathered at Kak Bedah's house as early as 9 am in the morning. I was quite annoyed because Syamil did not want to follow us and he stayed at home playing games... After the bersanding ceremony, we were all gathered at the house compound to bid farewell to Kak Nah and Mamak Mail because they were going back to JB. It was a rather sad situation... I cried as I kissed Mamak Mail's hand... It may took years ahead before we will be able to meet again.

The funny part was, we were so busy with the farewell thingy that nobody attended to the grooms.. They were left at the table and the DJ played a very slow Hindi number. Siti was giggling when she said..." lama sungguh upacara perpisahan ni... Siap ada background music lagi. Lagu Hindi pulak tu... "

MY JOURNEY OF BECOMING AN EDUCATOR....

Today I met DKA 5C and DKA 5B for the first time. This is really first time because I have never taught them before. I've instructed my semester five students to do some " light reading " during the CNY holiday...

So dear students, this is your first task....

I obtained 5As for my Standard 5 Assessment Examination and it was one of the happiest thing ever happened to me. The whole family was actually shocked as I announced the result to them. It was because of my not so impressive 1A and 4Bs of my trial examination. Most of my family members bet that the best that I could get may possibly be a combination of 3As and 2Bs, looking at the level of no seriousness in my attempts to revise and prepare myself towards the examination. But being a so called gifted child, I have actually surprised them with my unexpected success.


I continued my secondary years in Sekolah Menengah Sains Tengku Abdullah ( SEMESTA ), a boarding school not so far from my own house. Initially, I was a bit disappointed of not getting the offer to other far, far away schools such as STF, Seri Puteri or TKC. But to my own astonishment, though the school was only 7 kilometres away from home, I did experienced home sickness and was actually sobbing under the blanket every night before going to sleep. My family had to come and visit me every week at the hostel as requested by me.


I became an average student and did not perform well in school due to my playful and again not serious attitudes towards my study. My marks will always range between C5 to C3. We were divided into sets for our English class where they were determined by our English performance in the cloze test which we have to take in the beginning of early year of the school session and quite surprisingly, I did very well for all my tests. I was always a Set A student.
My utmost ambition was to be a psychologist, specializing on kids and adolescents. I love working with kids and I always pictured myself being interviewed in television, giving my opinions and views on issues regarding kids and youngsters.


I might be destined to be a late bloomer, for my SPM result was not very good. I only managed to get 2nd Grade with 25 aggregates which I regretted because earlier my aunty had promised that she would buy gold necklace and bracelet if I got 1st grade. For the whole day of the result’s announcement I was saying to myself if only I got 24 aggregate, I must now be on my way to the goldsmith.


It was in November 1991 when I was half way through my lower six that I got an offer to do Diploma in Public Administration in ITM Shah Alam. Again I was a little bit frustrated since I actually prayed to get a place in ITM Dungun but I accepted the offer and in early December I was off to Shah Alam.


My attitudes changed dramatically and I became more attentive towards my study. I was more serious and managed to get good marks for almost every course that I took. What really surprised me was I managed to get 4.0 for my business mathematics paper which was really a huge thing. I managed to obtain 3.5 and received the Deans Award for my first semester.


I did not expect that I would get an offer for the teacher training course as I was not performing well during the UKELP test and interview session. Being typical Malay elders, my grandfather and father urged me to accept the offer. I actually wanted to continue my study in ITM but because of not wanting to be anak derhaka, I have to follow their decisions. And again, in early July 1992, off to Raja Melewar Teaching College I was sent to which I also reluctantly accepted since my cousin was already there and I would rather go elsewhere.


My five semester stay in Seremban was full of memories. A lot of things happened to me as I eventually became more matured. We learnt a lot of things academically as well as things in everyday life. Having the opportunity to watch a movie specially dedicated to teachers in conjunction with Teacher’s Day entitled Cikgu Limau Kasturi had changed my perceptions drastically about being a teacher. Then only I knew that the movie was actually based on a real story of Nazri, who happened to be my friend when I was teaching in Petaling Jaya. By the end of my teaching course, I was engaged to Mohd. Khaizuzafarin bin Bedalib, who was a friend from the next class which was actually beyond my expectation.


I was first posted to Sek. Keb. LKTP Kemasul, a remote Felda settlement school in Triang, Pahang. It was a medium sized school with about less than 1,000 students and we were staying in quarters. It was the first time that I experienced 12 hours supply of electricity and at first it was not a pleasant one. I learnt a lot of valuable things of my 7 months stay in the school. Though they were under privileged in so many ways, the students were very enthusiastic and they valued education as something crucial for them to grasp. There was once when a group of parents came to see me asking whether they can send their children to stay with me for several days in a week so that the students can get extra coaching especially in English. So, every Tuesdays and Wednesdays nights, I was sleeping with a few of my Year 3 girls and boys.
In early August 1995, I shifted to SRK ( 1 ) Taman Dato’ Harun in Petaling Jaya. My expectations of much better teaching scenarios compared to the previous school shattered as I started my first day in the school. The students were from Taman Dato’ Harun, which was a resettlement housing area for ex – squatter residents and their attitudes towards education and learning were extremely different. There was once, when almost three quarter of my English class admitted that they did not bring their textbook though in reality there were less than 10 pupils who actually did that. This was because to them, it is much better if everybody resort to the same excuse so that lesson will not be carried out. I was actually teaching them English in Bahasa Melayu.


My application to transfer to a nearer school was approved, so in August 1997, I shifted to Sek.Keb. Taman Sea in SS2, Petaling Jaya. Since I was staying in Section 19, I took the opportunity to walk everyday to school. I had a totally different experience teaching in the school. Everybody speaks English and we even have to teach Bahasa Melayu in English. The headmaster appointed me as the secretary of PTA because I can communicate in English and I can write in BM, of course. Here, I had to teach Year One and they became so attached to me since I treated them as my own child for at that moment I was childless.


In middle of October 1998, I received an offer to further my study in UPSI majoring in TESL. I was rather sad and cried for days because I had to leave my precious 1 Bestari students. A Chinese couple came to see me asking whether it was true that they heard I was going to leave the school from their daughter who was crying all the way back from school. A few days before I actually leave the school, several parents came and they gave a lot of gifts and presents including a set of necklace and bracelet ( though was not real pearls ) that I kept until today.
After finishing my study in October 2001, I was posted to SMK Kuala Kubu Bharu though I applied to teach in Pahang. Teaching in secondary school was very different from teaching in primary schools. Though they were much more manageable, they were also full of tricks. Apart from being a teacher, I was also appointed as a warden and I had to take care of about 98 teenage girls that I found to be fun but sometimes challenging. I tried a new approach in managing them where instead of portraying a serious and fierce image of warden as they always described to me, I treat them as growing kids. Instead of getting angry when they did something wrong, I always advise and motivate them in a different approach. We always have party and gathered as one big family and we spent the weekend doing things together. I made them feel more freely in approaching me if they have anything to share.


I had to leave the school in 2003 after getting an offer to be a lecturer in Politeknik Sultan Azlan Shah ( formerly known as Politeknik Tanjong Malim ). Teaching older groups of students to me sometimes are more challenging than teaching in schools as their attitudes and expectations towards education were so different compared to their school years. I tried to be more approachable and tried to change their attitudes especially towards language learning. I realized that in making them see the importance of education and language learning, many things and changes should be made. I tried to minimize the gap between me and them so that they feel that the role of their instructors were not only restricted to giving them the input but also nurturing, inculcating good values as well as to motivate them.


I am so grateful to Allah because he had given me the opportunity to have the experience of teaching all levels of students. I used to teach students in kindergarten ( I did part time teaching when I was in PJ ), primary, secondary and adults. All the exposures and experiences had broaden my perspectives of becoming an educator where I played several kinds of roles and making me understand more about the students’ needs and expectations of learning especially language learning.


My ultimate gratitude goes to Allah s.w.t for all the blessings and thank you to my dearest Abah…who eventually forced me to become a teacher. Thank you to my most lovable Chittapa / Tok Aki and my Uwan for taking care of me since I was a baby and loving me dearly for the last 33 years so that I grew up to be a humble person and are able to share all the love with everybody else. Thank you to my Emak…who gave birth to me and were always there when I need her. Thank you also to my Ngah, Mummy, Cik, Papa and Mama who have constantly motivated and support me in spirit as well as financially throughout my journey of becoming what I am today. Not forgetting my Pak Long, Pak Andak and Mak Andak, Pak Uda and Mak Uda as well as my Teh Nah for always remembering and praying for my success. Of course for my Kak Long and Abang Man too, my brothers, Khairul, Izad and Azri, my in laws Kak Ano and Abang Aziz, Kak Erie and Abang Said, nieces, nephews, relatives and especially my children and grandchildren for always loving me and adding colours and joy to my life. Lastly, to my husband who continuously supporting me and had become my tutor, counsellor, best friend and sometimes ATM for the 12 years of our marriage.

J

HELLO...

GETTING TO KNOW YOU

It's a very ancient saying,

But a true and honest thought,

That if you become a teacher,

By your pupils you'll be taught.

As a teacher I've been learning (You'll forgive me if I boast)

And I've now become an expert,

On the subject I like most. Getting to know you.

Getting to know you, getting to know all about you.

Getting to like you, getting to hope you like me.

Getting to know you, putting it my way, But nicely,

You are precisely, My cup of tea.

Getting to know you, Getting to feel free and easy.

When I am with you, Getting to know what to say

Haven't you noticed Suddenly I'm bright and breezy

Because of all the beautiful and new Things

I'm learning about you Day by day

I really love this song, which is actually one of the several songs contain in the musical movie of The King and I. It was a classic movie about Mrs. Anna Leonowens who was an English lady who taught the children of King Mongkut of Siam. It was indeed a nice movie, though it was a classic, I always enjoy watching it.

After a long holiday ( about 3 months ), I had to admit feeling a little bit nervous going to the classes during the first meeting. Except DTK 6, this semester I did not get to teach my previous students. It was rather intimidating going to DAT 2A and 2B on Monday. I planned to carry out some communicative activities with the students. Alhamdulillah... everything went smoothly as planned and the children looked happy ( I supposed ).

I am quite busy with my Quality works as well as translation of PSAS portal tasks. At the same time, I am pretty much preocccupied with the time table and my Masters project. Next week ( 22 - 25 July 2008 ), I will be away for the CPCM course ( Creative Thinking ) in PSA... Guess there'll several replacement classes to be done...

NEW SEMESTER NEW PLAN NEW FACES...EVERYTHING NEW

July 2008 semester began on the 07th July with me involving in the registration process for the Semester One students. I came across several students with good English result. To name a few, I met Azmir, an Orang Asli student from Ipoh who obtained A1 for both his English and GCE O Level plus his EST.

The other thing that I realised was most of the students scored good grade in their Mathematics. So hey... what are all the fuss about teaching Maths and Science in English that was said to be uneffective?

The next day, I was quite busy with the senior students' registration. Several of my PA students did not turn up for the registration due to their personal problems.

The whole week I was quite preoccupied with preparing the materials for FRP briefing as well as going through the new Quality documents.

It seems that I will be teaching Semester 2, 3 and 6 in both Commerce and Electrical Department.

GOOD BYE...

Yesterday ( Thursday ) Jihan and I went to JJ and we had Roasted Chicken Salad at Kenny Rogers Roaster. We talked about a lot of things and basically had fun.

Then, as Jihan and Aida went down to interview a girl, I continued printing the Genpak Desa's leaflet. I managed to print about 250 copies of the leaflet and handed them over to Jihan.

We took pictures together and as Richard was upstairs, he joined us for the shoot. I packed all my things and felt quite sad to leave Wisma Penyayang. Mizah said it was " poyo " of me to feel that way. I should face the fact that knowing and leaving would be one of the parts and parcel of life. I don't have any issue with that but I am like that. Like I always tell her, I'm sucks at farewells.

There is nothing else to do today... There are some teenie weenie last touch ups to do as to email Aida, Jihan and Kelvin informing some updates such as :
a. my log in and password - for Vanessa's purpose'
b. my e-mail and phone no. to be contacted
c. latest updates of the interstitials and future Malaysian English programme
d. forward proposal for Robocon ( ?? )

So, I guess...

Good bye...Wisma Penyayang
Good Bye... AESB
Farewell...TVIQ

Till we meet again and may Allah bless all of you...
Thanks for sparing a space for me to learn a lot of new things and thanks for making me feel as part of the team

Yesterday, I joined Jihan and Azlina during lunchtime and we went to Cara Kampung Restaurant. We met Namanzee, Khairul Mizan, Ati and Raqim and we had our lunch together.

Later, I browsed through the internet doing some research works and Jihan asked me to help her in producing the leaflet for Gempak Desa.

Earlier I called up Ilyas to wish him Happy Birthday and later talked to Mizah. Aida told us about her experience in Jakarta.

This morning, we still worked on the leaflet thingy and started to get very annoyed because the more we try to mend things, the more the leaflet looks odd...

Today I planned to do last touch ups to my things and pack them up. Tomorrow will be my last day and today will be my last meeting with Jihan. Sedih la jugak...

NEW THING AT THE END OF THE ROAD...

On Monday, Jihan taught me on how to check the status and version of scheduled programme through the IBMS system. Though it was tedious ( because the system was slow ) but it was great because I got to know how to check for the status of TX ( either it's ready or not ).

Today, I'm not sure what will be assign to me or maybe I'll just spend my day packing up my things... Hu hu... I have only 2 days more here... I received a mail reminding me to keep myself free on Friday because it seems that they will be organising Farewell as well as Birthday treat for me in Le Meridien this Friday...

Jihan told me about the meeting this afternoon with Nizam regarding the presentation for Focus sessions last two weeks.

SHOOTING...

Yesterday ( 24 June 2008 ) I had an on location assignment. Aida had been away for 4 days and will only be back from Jakarta in the evening. Jihan had to attend meetings so it was only me who was available to accompany Javerd and his team for the shooting.

At 11 am, we met up at the entrance of National Science Centre. Azra from Smart Reader Worldwide came a little bit later and directed us to the Quantum Auditorium which will be the location for the Spelling Challenge Writing Contest and there will be another auditorium for the oral section but we cannot get into the hall since there was a conference going on.

Azra explained about the whole event. Basically, Smart Reader Spelling Challenge is designated for 4- 6 young kids and there will be two parts; oral and written. Written will only be about 5 minutes and oral will take longer time. There will be regional level where every centre, nation wide will carry out the contest and the best from each state will be competing in Kuala Lumpur on the 3rd July. What's so special about this event is the kids will not be spelling words as it is normally done but they will do phonics spelling. The children will have to spell the words in English, Malay and Mandarin.

We then decided to meet up at Smart Reader Worldwide's headquarters at 2.00 pm because Javerd will be doing Dr. Wang's interview shoot. When we met up later, Javerd thought of asking me to ask questions to Dr. Wang as if in normal interview session but Azra told us that Dr. Wang has her speech ready and will just speak to the camera. Phew!!! that's better...

Having the opportunity to be involved in such situation was a good and beneficial experience. Every aspect is crucial in a shooting...lighting, angle and even noise... We had to switch off the air cond because it distracted the sound reception...

WOW...IT'S THRILLING...

On Friday, I concentrated on the viewing tasks. Jihan handed over a compilation of TWIN FARM Dvds and informed that RL wanted us to watch the show because he produced them.
We agreed that anything that has twins will always be interesting though they are in BEng.

I went to a Malay stall for lunch and had rice with ikan singgang and daging goreng... Later, as I reached the office, Jasbir called up and informed that somebody wanted to see me. I went down and saw Zahrul, the producer of This is IT was waiting for me at the lobby.

He passed the tape and a copy of This is IT ( first ep ) in CD form. I went up and watched it with Jihan. There has been several changes such as better music and graphic and we kind of like them.

It was so thrilling to see my name appeared on the credit list. Fuuuuhhhh...it was so satisfying though I'm a little bit shy since I didn't involved in the project from the beginning... Thank you...

On Saturday, we went to Midvalley with the children. Kakak Ya was so happy as we took the train and the kids enjoyed themselves. It was funny to see them sleeping all the way back, I guess because they were tired. It was not that frequent we got to see Abang Khaizu in his extra jovial mood.

As requested by the kids and abang Khaizu, I prepared nasi minyak for Sunday lunch. Syamil said macam pergi kenduri kawin. Later, at about 4 Syamil had his second lunch... I was about to start ironing the clothes, last evening when I realised there were a lot of kids in front of the house. I went out to get some clothes peg and was so shocked when I heard Syamil's cried informing that somebody hit him with the rounder's bat.

He was bleeding and his cheek at the lower part of his left eye was swollen. I took him inside and abang Khaizu looked at the wound. He told us that he was watching the kids playing rounders when one of the boys hit the ball and later threw the bat before he started running... He was so upset because the other kids were blaming him for sitting too near to the batting corner... His father put some medication and asked him to rest...

Kakak Ya and adik Naeim loves to fight with each other. I find it very difficult to get them to sit or lie down together without them ending up in a big fight. Nowadays, adik Naeim is good at fighting back. he would pull the sister's hair or pinch the sister hard on her face or hand...

Whatever it is, they are the most precious jewel to me... my lovely children Syamil Nuqman, Shahirah Nafeesa and Syakir Naeim

THANK YOU AND THANK YOU...

I received a call from Mr. Kesavan at about 11.50 in the morning. He informed me that he was in Seri Kembangan town and whether he lost the way. He said he saw the signage to Equine Park and I told him to just drive straight up until he reached the Jaya Jusco and from there I'll lead him the way.

Pn. Masitah texted me informing that she'll be here by 2.30pm and later when Mr. Kesavan called to tell me that he's in Wisma Penyayang but need to get some lunch...I told him to take his time since Pn. Masitah will be here only at 2.30pm

The session went on smoothly and I was so happy when Mr. Kesavan informed he was happy with the good impression given by my supervisor about me.

Indeed I have learnt a lot of things since I came here and it was such a good, beneficial and meaningful experience.

Thank you Aida and Jihan for teaching me a lot

Thank you Richard for being a good and understanding boss ( though I seldom had a chat with you )

Thank you Liza who makes me feel as if I'm part of the team

Thank you JPPKK and PSAS for giving me this opportunity

Thank you Mas and Mr. K for coming all the way to do the visitation

UPDATES ...

On Tuesday ( 18 June 2008 ), I was informed that Puan Masitah and Mr. Keseven will be coming on Thursday for the Attachment visitation. Yesterday ( 19 June ) I spent my morning updating and organising all the materials that I've done throughout the session.

Jihan asked whether I can assist her in writing a letter to Microsoft regarding Gempak Desa. I wrote the draft and passed it to her to be checked. Later, Aida added more points and Jihan then mailed it to Microsoft.

Realising that Pn. Mas and Mr. K might have problems locating AESB, I asked if Jihan had a copy of the map to Wisma Penyayang. Later she informed that she had forwarded the map to my outlook. I knew she must have asked from somebody else.

Aida, Jihan and Richard have been so nice to me for the past 3 months of my stay here... I managed to learn a lot of things because they are always kind enough to share whatever knowledge and skills that they have...

I know, I will miss the fun and new experiences that I've gained here...

BITTER SWEET

TUESDAY ( 18 JUNE 2008 )

Yesterday ( 17.06 ) I managed to hand in the complete programme brochures to Aida and forwarded a copy to Jihan. Then I continued my day by doing extended research for the holidays and celebrations but this time only concentrating in Malaysia and Indonesia.

Later in the evening, Aida asked me to check a letter which she wrote on coming up with proposal for a new project for ASTRO Malaysia and Indonesia.

Received a phone call from Kak Fariza requesting me to print the option 58 form and to be sent to PSAS. Asked Aida whether I can go to PSAS tomorrow and she gave her consent.

I spent my Tuesday in PSAS meeting Kak Fariza and attending the Voices of Technicals sharing session. Basically we have reached the objective of the course though some participants were not happy because they could not accept the truth that have been revealed by one of the speaker on their role as lecturers.

OOHHH... SO EXCITING!!!

I spent my morning on the brochure's project. Managed to finish everything by lunch time. I am quite frustrated when I recieved an email from a representative of CfBT in Brunei informing that they only required teachers who have UK background.

I really hoped that I'll get some good news soon from UNESCO... I need to get out of here... ugh... I mean Malaysia...

Aida informed me that TVIQ will be involved in so many exciting and big projects in the future... It is depressing since I'm leaving soon... Aida is going to Jakarta this Friday to discuss further about the M3 project and also for the Keep It Wild shoot...

It seems that The Smart TVIQ programmes will only be teasers and the actual things will only be aired next year... Aida was a bit dissappointed because as she told me, they were not informed earlier about the change of decision.

Allah...
Give me a chance to try something different and new

Allah ...
fulfill all my request because you are the Most Powerful and Generous... There is no other place for me to ask except to you...

Amin Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin

BILALAH KITA NAK BELAJAR ...

It has been a while since I last write in this blog of mine. The day before ( June, 11 ) I was quite busy viewing the VHS and burning the pilot videos.

Yesterday, as I reached the office, I started to work on the filler project. Aida said I must be busy with something since I was so quite... I managed to mail 16 copies of the proposal for the filler to Aida and Kelvin...

By noon, I was quite hungry and ate my nasi lemak ( which was suppose to be my breakfast ) and Aida later spotted me browsing the McDonald's website. We then decided to go to McD at about 4 but pretended that we were off to a meeting...

Enough of the routine reporting thing... Now, back to reality...

Though I had a very memorable session in Sabah, an incident occurred that basically ripped all my excitement and happiness... I just do not understand why some people can be so spiteful. Its as if you are deliberately back stabbing someone who is ought to be your friend. Friendship can be literally be so deceiving...

Throughout my time out of the campus... I learnt a lot of things... Sincerity, loyalty, willing to learn, hatred, vengenace and many more with in turn hep in maturing me...

It's actually very painful to put everything in writing...but I know this is the only way for me to voice out my feelings....

Allah...
Di masa dan tika ini aku sangat lemah dan tidak berdaya...

Allah...
Ampunkan aku jika selama ini terlalu banyak dosa yang aku lakukan terhadapmu, diriku juga orang-orang disekeliling ku.

Allah...
Sebanyak mana aku tidak pernah mengganggu orang lain, sebanyak itu juga aku pohon agar mereka berhenti menekan dan menindasku

Allah..
janganlah jadikan aku sebagai ugutan bagi ancaman untuk orang lain kerana aku tidak berniat begitu

Allah...
Lahirkan perasaan dan niat baik dalam diri inan insan disekeliling ku sebagaimana aku sentiasa berfikiran serupa kepada mereka

Allah...
jadikan aku orang yang baik dan berguna....

This morning Aida and me went to SJKC Yuk Chai to watch the Discovery Magazines Spelling Contest. This morning was a state level competition and we were very impressed with the way they organised the event.

Later, we went to La Manila for brunch and we talked about a lot of thing. I managed to voiced out my problems to Aida and she was indeed a good listener. She advised me to be strong and patient with whatever trials and tribulations.

Sometimes I do feel sad and dissappointed with all the office politics that are going on but it's not my nature to confront people. Because to me, what's goes around comes around and the best I could do is to just be calm and I don't want those nitty witty things to bother me so much...

JEJAK KASIH

Dua tiga bulan ini aku banyak berjaya menjejak kawan - kawan lama yang dah berbelas - belas tahun tak jumpa.

Raja Eliza Mohana - gang rapat aku semasa kat sekolah menengah. Masih ingat lagi jeritan bebudak lelaki bila setiap kali nampak dia....Fumakila!!! Tapi itulah antara kenangan manis kitorang dengan dia. Masih aku ingat, bagaimana sedihnya kami rasa bila terpaksa berpisah dengan dia yang harus meninggalkan sekolah kerana pencapaiannya tak mencecah requirement sekolah

Norfiza aka Dotty - tak akan aku lupa seorang kawan yang berambut kerinting dan lawak ni... Satu ciri - ciri Dotty yang aku sentiasa ingat ialah lesung pipit kecik di hujung bibirnya yang comel sangat. Aku akan sentiasa ingat macamana tabah dan rajinnya mak dia datang berulang alik dari KL ke SEMESTA untuk melawat dia dan Rahmat adiknya. Takziah unutknya atas kehilangan sepasang anak kembarnya yang juga pasti secomel ibunya

Nasroliza - lagi sorang gang rapat aku masa di Tingkatan 4 dan 5. Dia cantik dan aku masih ingat lagi tentang berapa ramai orang yang bertaruh bila dia mula pakai tudung dan alhamdulillah masih kekal jadi penampilannya. Dia berkahwin dengan kawan kami juga dan mereka bercinta sejak Tingkatan 4. Namun langit cerah itu tak selamanya cerah bila aku dapat khabar mereka dah berpisah... Kuatlah Chacha... Aku tahu kau kuat...

Zufliha - kali akhir kami jumpa kira - kira 10 tahun lepas dan akhirnya lost contact. Lately baru kami berjaya berjumpa semula. Leha dengan gaya selambanya namun cerdik belajar...

Wan Hasniah aka Washer - si budak tomboy yang sekarang dah bertransformasi jadi anggun ( anggun ke??? ). Khabarnya dah jadi ahli perniagaan berjaya...

Aivy - kawan baik masa zaman kecik - kecik aku yang masih kekal sampai kini. Agaknya Allah memang mentakdirkan kami kawin juga pada tarikh yang hampir sama di tahun dan bulan yang sama. Gelak nya unik dan selalu menghiburkan

Chairossafinaz - kawan baik zaman kecik yang baru saja aku berjaya jejaki tengahari tadi. Ya Allah rindu bukan kepalang rasanya... Paling menggembirakan aku, Chairos masih mesra macam dulu... terjerit besar dia bila aku perkenalkan diri. Kami janji akan berjumpa satu hari nanti dan kali ini kami janji akan pastikan Aivy join sekali... Sesungguhnya kami memang kawan rapat satu masa dulu. Aku, Aivy dan Chairos....

Dan aku juga akan tidak pernah lupa kawan - kawan yang masih berhubungan...Medlina yang pasti kini sedang bahagia dengan familynya. Natrah yang kekal jadi sahabat yang paling baik, dan Yan yang kini jadi warga Kuala Tahan menabur bakti menjadi guru di sana...

Ya Allah ... peliharalah mereka.. Mudah mudahan persahabatan kami akan kekal selamanya dan semoga ikatan persahabatan kami akan membawa banyak kebaikan kepada peribadi serta ugama kami... Amin

17th MELTA INTERNATIONAL CONFERENCE

It has been a while since I last updated my blog... Been away from 4th June till yesterday. Let me briefly share the things that I've gone through these past few days...

4th June

I woke up earlier that usual. I would be going with Kak Ano and she planned to drop me off at any Monorail or LRT station so that I can continue my journey to KL Central. We used Jalan Tun Razak and Kak Ano dropped me off. Paid 2.50 for the fare to KL Sentral.

Went to Warong Kita to have breakfast and just as I was starting to have it, Gan called asking my whereabout. She joined me but didn't eat anything since she has just taken hers.

Later we bought the KLIA express ticket and went down to Level 1. We reached KLIA at almost 10 and went up to level 5. Gan went to the ladies and I withdrew some money. Later we went to a book store and browsed for story book. A few days ago, while searching for Reaching the Star book, I read the review for The Kite Runner and A Thousand Splendid Sun by Khaled Hosseini. Eventually, Gan was looking for The Kite Runner and I was attracted to get A Thousand Splendid Sun. We came to an agreement that Gan would buy one and so did I and we will exchange after we have read ours.

We boarded the plane at 11.30 but sat separately. I spent the first hour sleeping and the second one reading the story book.

We arrived at Kota Kinabalu nearly 3.00pm. It was a nice scenery from the plane. The airport was just beside the sea and it was picturesque. We took a taxi and went straight to Le Meridien.

Gan was informed that her room was not ready so we decided to go to the Filipino Market. They have a lot of crafts and their specialty, pearls. It was so interesting looking at all the jewelleries. Gan bought a set of necklace and bracelet for over RM 100.00.

Later we registered to the secretariat and I was so shocked to know that though I have made it clear that I am only presenting at Sabah, my name appeared at all the three places. We then went to our room and decided to just settle in.

5th June

The conference started at 8.00 am. Dato' Noor Rezan Bapoo Hashim's speech was splendid. Gan will be presenting this morning and I am to present tomorrow. Yesterday I met Dr. Faizah and her presentation is also today.

I saw a few PKK lecturers but later was even happier to know that 19 of them ( which means all ) were in Le Meridien for the conference.They said they were happy because it was seldom that they got to see somebody from polytechnic present paper at conferences.

That evening we went to Pasar Malam and I bought several bracelets, brooches and baju melayu buttons for my family. I bought a set of necklace and bracelet for Kak Ya. I thought of buying for myself but thinking about how seldom I used them, cancelled the idea.

The participants and presenters were invited for a dinner sponsored by Sabah Ministry of Culture and Tourism. We had so much fun...Gan and Dr. Faizah joined them for their dance. I got some books for the lucky dip... Then we took photos...

6th June

I was so nervous because I'm presenting today. At 1.45pm I went to Gaya room and get everything ready. My session will be at 2.35pm...Later, a few people started to enter the room and by 2.40pm, the room was half full with spectators.

I started by introducing myself and telling them my experience in teaching and later on witht he actual presentation... Everything went well... Praise to Allah and I was so happy...

7th June

I'm leaving Kota KInabalu today. But I promised that some day I'll be back and I'm planning to bring the whole family together with me...

COUNTDOWN TO REALITY...

We went to Kak Ano's place last night. Earlier we stopped by at Kak Errie's house to fetch Salwa and Farah but it seems only Salwa will be following us.

Adik Naeim seems to forget things easily. He refused to respond to Aida's calling and this somehow dissappoint her. As we are getting ready for bed, then only we realised that we left adik's feeding bottle. Khaizu been creative by coming up with a bottle from an empty soy bean container ( he he he )

This morning, I finished up my work on Interview Protocol for Gain Family Discovery Camp. And later, as I finished the task, I continued doing the final touches to my Melta Presentation Slide. I plan to do some reading and revision tonight at Kak Ano's place.

After lunch, we viewed the Pilot Video for SPM Science & English and PMR English and I was required to make 3 more copies for each original video. Jihan is going to teach me on how to burn the CDs later before she quickly get her lunch.

Aida wanted me to join the meeting with Liza and Oasis people because they are discussing on producing a new women show and basically it will be a join production between TVIQ and Oasis. Aida wanted me to sit in and give ideas...

I have to finish everything by today because tomorrow I'll be flying off to Kota Kinabalu for the conference. I pray to Allah that everything will be fine... Hopefully I will be able to deliver everyhting eloquently. Please Ya Allah... Help me so that I can present my ideas in a good way.